delusion? or is it communication. the more aged i become the more question there is to its agenda. as you see, to me it isn’t delusion. several years ago, the last thing the voice said was ‘time will reverse itself’. have things changed since then? has man diverted such a dystopian future? are the events of future time malleable? i think the statement meant the power grid would fail. without a doubt that would reverse time. and it said reverse itself meaning technology would be the cause. for me, what is there to believe? afraid to believe anything for belief may be the cause of everything of the future anyhow.

before or after that day, can’t remember the time with accuracy, the communicator asked me to define ‘belief’. spiritual folk have feelings of faith. the feelings are an important part of belief. its not just thoughts. in ‘websters’ they define the word belief as a habit of thought, but its more than mere thinking.

define belief – at first thinking to use logic but is it? can it be logical? the communicator assisted me. they sent me into the outer cosmos to a realm of logical beings where i was instructed to ‘gather thousands of keys of logic’ to even begin. i tried and failed to even to begin such a task. the day passed into the next wondering about ‘keys’. then thinking to use spirituality to define belief the communicator says ‘this will take fortitude’. not understanding what they meant i said lets continue. then they said ‘ we will use your families spirituality as reference. then they began to tell me things of the very foundation and origination of my families spirits and i couldn’t take it any longer. there had to be an ending right now. i jumped into suicide, the only way to stop the communicator. the last thing they said was ‘ your wife will be home early’ and she was. she found me in the basement bathroom unconscious. had lit a charcoal fire there and sat down to die. i passed out into beautiful painless peace. my left hand fell into the hot coals and had to be surgically removed. spent 28 days in the hospital.